Right now, I'm emotionally stressed, I'm physically tired, my eyes are burning from all those tears, my heart is caught in suspension and I'm humanly unstable. July 15, 2006 at around 6:30 am, everything will never be the same again. I don't know what to say anymore rather I don't know what to do and I don't know where to start.

Brad alam mo na yun. I don't need to repeat what I've just said moments before your departure. As soon as I got home, I tried calling your phone but to no avail. You've just left the area of coverage. I was hoping to say goodbye to you for the last time.

On the other hand, I know that you will be back, I don't know when, where and how but I know deep inside my heart that you will be back to keep your promise.

Sabi ko nga sayo Brad, "Bawal akong mamatay dahil meron pa akong kailangan makilala."

Sagot mo naman, "Oo, bawal ka pang mamatay kasi babalik pa ako."

Hindi man ako naniniwala sa Diyos o sa kung sino man, tinanggap ko ang munting regalo mo, kasi alam kong alam mo kung ano ang makabubuti sa akin, may tiwala ka sa akin at meron din naman akong tiwala sayo. Basta tandaan mo lang, maghihintay lang ako dito kahit gaano pa katagal.

BAWAL AKONG MAMATAY.