Wednesday, September 06, 2006

I thought that the dark days were gone. I thought the pain and tears were already gone. Life is a living hell for me. The ghosts of the past are here to haunt me again. My inner demons are back to eat me alive. I'm just a child, helpless and confused. I don't know where to run to anymore. I've learned a very important lesson in one of my favorite subjects, INSTUD and that is, "Peace is just a preparation for war." True enough, happy days are over and we are back to business, back in wasteland. This is the aftermath of everything that I've conquered in the pass.

To start things off, I didn't get accepted in my majors program, the only thing that I've been waiting for my whole life. The career that I chose was within my grasp only to be taken away by the new chairman. I did my best and missed the mark by .003 and now it's eating me alive. Everytime my friends would talk about how excited they are to major in communication arts, I can't help it but to be disappointed to myself. I know I did my best, it's just that I'm not good enough. I'm not good enough to do anything at all. I'm helpless and I'm useless.

And then money matters. What a great time to be strucked by this ordeal. The world revolves around money. No matter what we say, when you have no cash, you ain't anything in this fucking world. That's why Mr. Bush is happily killing muslims so just he can have his oil. Haha...the things that people do for money. Same reason why they are supporting the war in the middle east. Money...they're bad for the people.

I just wish people would stop screwing my life. What did I ever do to them?

finale.
10:23 AM